Hello my lovelies!
I hope everyone reading this has appreciated how awesome you are and has had a fab day today 🙂
I am aware that we have been significantly less active recently and for that I want to say a massive SORRY to everyone that usually enjoys reading our posts.
The reason for my inactivity of late is that I have been transferred to a different unit where I unfortunately don’t have the luxury of a wi-fi password! But I have definitely missed this community and the support we get from our lovely commenters and also catching up on your own blogs so from now on I am going to grab every rare opportunity I get on a laptop to give you post! Think of it as a virtual hug from me 🙂
I’m not going to lie to you – things have been hard lately there’s no denying it. Which is why I chose not to post and instead let Lucy do all the talking (big hugs to her) But now I’m ready to talk.
At the other unit where I was with Lucy and all the other gorgeous gals, I learnt how to cope with my Eating Disorder to the point that now I think I can say I am recovered from it. As my struggles with anorexia lessened, other things came more into the picture. I struggled a lot more with self harm and then eventually with suicidal thoughts and urges. This got to the point where there was an attempt to end it all at least once every couple of days. This led to my transfer to a different ward where I have already made huge amounts of progress. I am no longer on 1:1 observations…I CAN POO IN PEACE!!! And have crazy emergency dance parties when things get too much; I definitely recommend that you try this… after I’ve done this post I’ll go and start an emergency dance party playlist on Spotify to get you started (if any of you have read ‘Fangirl’ by Rainbow Rowell then she has an okay one on Spotify already) Not only that but tomorrow I have my first visit home in a good couple of months. I’ll update you on how that goes as soon as I can.
I guess what I really want to remind you guys is that life is for living. I think so many of us can forget that and just go from day-to-day forgetting what this is all for. Life is precious and you only get one shot at it so make it count. Giving up is really not the answer but what is, is remembering that you can do this and getting up each morning with a purpose. Say to yourself, “Things may be hard but they will get better. I will make them that way.” It may seem that everything is out of your control but they’re not, I promise you. You have the power to make the decision to do the things that make you happy. There are always going to be things that you don’t want to do and that are going to be hard but there are also so many things to appreciate. Even the tiny things like the smile of a stranger walking by on the street, a baby’s laugh, a ladybird or butterfly landing in your garden or how your pet greets you with unconditional love each and every time it sees you – the more you look for good, the more you find. Always cling on to the things that make you happy and learn to give yourself credit for being strong and time to do the things that make you smile.
And never forget,
Always choose to live.
Love and virtual hugs,
Anna 🙂 X
The next post will hopefully coming soon and I already have a couple of ideas so it won’t be as long – promise!