I’m not going to bullshit you and tell you that from day 1 I was 100% determined to recover, because I wasn’t. This has been the hardest journey of my life. It was even harder than recovering the first time. I’ve experienced so much since being here – I’ve been in a wheelchair and on NG and I never thought I’d get to the point where I am now. I am finally at target. Admittedly I don’t feel completely secure in my appearance but I’m growing more and more comfortable with my body, especially ma booty 😉
I’ve come to the realisation that staying at this weight is the only way I can get my life back. I can do so much more now, I can eat extra things outside of my meal plan, I’m not afraid of food and I can do all the sports and hobbies I enjoy again. Recovery is one of the hardest things I hope I ever have to go through but I can assure you it is worth it. I look back at the pictures below and I just remember how unhappy I was and how controlling my eating disorder was and how I had no hope of ever recovering. Now I do have hope. I can do this and so can you.
Chin up chikkas
Love Lucy x
*note from Anna – Doesn’t she look so much more beautiful now?? I love my Lucy lou and I am so infinitely proud of her. Keep fighting and you’ll win my lovelies.